I’m Back!

Greetings My Dear Readers,

Sorry I just dropped out like that. Things got really overwhelming really fast. Some crazy shit happened, not all good, not all bad. Now I’m living in NYC.

I have been more than a tiny bit aware that I have not updated this blog in way too long. I was also quite aware of the fact that very few people emailed / called asking if I was alive and well. Almost none of you questioned my disappearance. This saddens me. I suppose that very few of you actually see me as a person. I have been coming to terms with the reality of being a free jerk off site.

I’m still in the strip clubs, I’m sick to tears of people in ‘the real world’ judging my choices. I’m tired of being treated as a liability when I apply for housing. I’m sick of all of the bullshit that life has thrown my way lately.

I am not however all perved out. I’m in NYC. I live in NYC. This is fucking great.

If you are a wanker reading my site, enjoy, that is what it is there for. I’m not really sure what I want to do with this blog, with my life, or with all of the new opportunities that being in the city is providing. I’m at a crossroads.

All of the members of my cohort seem to be using their degrees and working on things that seem to matter to me. Some of them are working on progressive social justice issues and others are pursuing PhDs. I’m rotting, tossing and turning, not able to cope with some of the simple ‘musts’ of life that strike me as fascist bullshit.

I’m rambling to tell you that I’m back on the blog. That I’m in a mood. That I’m in NYC and I brought my shit kicking boots.

I need a place to work and a long term place to live.

I’m available for quick public golden showers. Thirsty?

7 thoughts on “I’m Back!

  1. Glad to see that you are back beautiful. Too bad you are all the way out on the East Coast, hit me up whenever you are in or near SoCal or even Vegas. I’d love to meet you and yes, I am thirsty! Ever since I first stumbled across your site I have fantasized about meeting you for one of your public golden showers. Mmm.

  2. Well, of all the people you were hoping to hear from, it is pretty much probably not me. Nevertheless, for some reason, i’m leaving this note to let you know i was thinking about you and wondering what happened and hoping you were okay. I didn’t write because i figured you would not want to hear from me.
    Mike (a whanker)

  3. Dear Widow,

    I expressed concern LAST time you vanished, and you never replied or acknowledged. You know what they say about honey and vinegar.

    SA

  4. Widow, glad to see you back; sorry life has not been going your way. Life is making yourself happy, not about equating an achieved degree with happiness. Pics are great. Your smile lights up my screen. Keep being YOU.

  5. It has been more than two months since your last post, which was optimistically titled, “I’m Back!” How’s life in the Big Apple? Your post suggests that you love the wild adventure of it all, but might be a little overwhelmed with the pressures of life, money, and love. But what do I know? I’m just some idiot you met in a Las Vegas casino who was too scared (or not sufficiently aroused) to pay you to piss on me in public.

    Forget me! How about you?! If you’re not pleased to run a “free jerk-off site” then start writing about things you really care about, things that interest you, or whatever catches your attention. That’s the point of a blog. Share and be pleasantly surprised by what others share in return. After a decade of ethnographic research into BDSM, I’m sure that you’ve come across some interesting observations that you would like to share and, hopefully, things that your adoring fans can talk about with you.

    Forget gender variant neologisms. This isn’t your thesis. You don’t have to impress an academic advisor. Write about whatever you want. What made you happy today and why? What made you sad? Better yet, why do you think some men pay to have women urinate on them? (I have my theories.) You have more experience in this area than anyone on the planet, most likely. Do you see any common themes or trends with the men you know who are into golden showers?

    Can’t wait to hear from you!

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