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Driving up hwy 101

In Adventure, bathroom, BDSM, deviance, discount domination, dominatrix, drama, drinking, Family, fetish, fun, GLBTQ, Golden Showers, Happy Hour, kink, pissing, politics, San Diego, San Francisco, Sex, sexual politics, sexuality, Tour, Touring, traveling, Widow Centauri on December 21, 2009 at 10:46 pm

I’m gonna go to San Francisco tomorrow, Tuesday 12/22.  I don’t have enough money for gas.  I have a few gallons of water.  I’ll drink them, then I’ll have to piss.  I’m taking the 101.  Are you a thirsty toilet boy on my way?  Call me / text me.  I’ll pull over and take a piss.

Widow Centauri


What Does A Woman Have To Do To Get Laid In This Town? — Leave Town?

In Adventure, advertisements, American Dominatrix, bathroom, BDSM, bullshit, cheap men, culture, culture clash, dating, deviance, drama, drinking, Education, FAQ, fun, Gay Bars, kink, neurosis, paying for it, perverts, politics, Public, San Diego, Sex, sexual politics, sexuality, shoes, whores, Widow Centauri on December 16, 2009 at 6:27 pm

“Young dumb and trying to get some.”

That is what the stupid boy who was too old for me to date back when I was a wee lass used to say.  He said other brilliant things too like “if I bite you it will hurt.”  Needless to say, dating that older guy made me into something of a whore.

But how is it possible that I am this frigid?  What does a woman have to do to get laid in this town?

Advert on eros guide?  Check

Get drunk and hit on professor in your department?  Check

Get drunk, dance with top off in gay bar?  Check

Still nothing.  It’s like people have stopped having sex.

It is also like people are afraid to have sex.  Are we really all that puritanical?  Is sex something of days gone by?  Has the internet really taken the physical intimacy out of sex?  I’m down with cyber sex, don’t get me wrong but I need to be touched.  I need to be made love to.  I need to have hot sex in a dirty bathroom, with a stranger or someone who is equally taboo and off limits.

Now granted I would like to be paid for my good times but seriously I would like to believe that getting naked in public could generate something. I’m really hot lately.   And what of hitting on a middle aged professor?  It is possible that I have no dignity left.  This is true.  I hit on a professor in my department.  Oy!  But I am so horny that I am going to start humping someone’s leg soon.

Last night the phone rang.  It was some dude with an area code that led me to believe he was from Chicago.  He said all the right things, got me all turned on, dressed up, in the car with a bag of toys and then as I was backing out of the driveway he said he fell asleep, was too tired, had to cancel.

I had been in bed, well in blanket on floor, before he called.  I was in fact asleep.  After he called I was horny and bound for his place expecting there to be a sexy time.  But alas, I sat there in my car, in my driveway, dressed up in an outfit that cost more than my rent.   No place to go.  I thought I could sit there smoking a joint and reading a book but I couldn’t find a lighter and the light in my car does not work.  I called everyone I thought might be up but then I came back into the postage stamp of an apartment.  I settled back down into my leg warmers next to my cat on the pile of blankets I am using as a bed.

This is pathetic.  I’m horny, I’m hot, I’m totally undersexed.

Lame lame lame.

I don’t even know how to properly express this sadness save to drown my sorrows in blogging.  Drinking seems to get me tossed out of gay bars and into slippery situations with important people in my conservative world.  I should avoid drinking in public in the future.  I guess I’ll go eat worms.

Queer Advocates in Public Schools?

In bitch, bitchy, bullshit, corporate america, deviance, drama, Family, GLBTQ, Kindness, politics, queer, safety, sexual politics, violence on December 4, 2009 at 11:54 pm

I’m angry.  I’m angry at a system that is designed to entrap it’s citizens, to coerce conformity, and to expect heteronormative behavior without questioning the underlying presuppositions of this one-sided way of life.

Last week a young person came into my life needing help.  I made phone calls to the father of this young person.  All he did was scream at me. I hoped the situation would simmer down.  It did not. I made sure this young person had a safe place to be and then I called zirs school on Monday morning to see what had to happen to ensure that this person could attend school without harassment.  The school officials told me that the youth needed to obtain a restraining order.  We spent all day Monday and Tuesday in a courtroom until the judge granted this.

The young person returned to school on Wednesday morning, glad to be at school and expecting that the restraining order would protect zir from harassment.  Sadly it has not.  The young person has had more harassment since zir returned to school than before the event took place.  The school officials seem to think that the whole thing is a joke.  They have called the young person out of the AP classes zir is taking to meet and talk about the situation everyday.  Today they placed a statement in front of zir suggesting that zir meet with the bigoted father.  Zir had little choice but to sign it.  When the vice principal of a high school says sign this, you sign it.  I remember being a teen.  The school counselors and the officials in charge have done little to protect this persons well being.  They all seem to think that the threat of a hate crime is nothing to be concerned about.  I think they are pushing this person to return to zirs father and god loving bigoted stepmother.

Today during the meeting the father of the young person was present.  This is the person who was ordered to stay 100 yards away.  The vice principal crafted a statement saying I ___ want to meet with the restrained father, and a police officer, and miss class.  I’m certain that none of this is what the young person wanted.  The young person is a straight A student who would have preferred to have stayed in class.

The way the school officials are acting is offensive.  It is scary.  It is insulting.  And it is inherently heterosexually hegemonic.  Why are they pushing this person into a corner?  I do not understand why the school cannot back the fuck down, let the young person get through the semester and let the judge order this homophobic father into tolerance training.

I am so angry at the way the situation is being treated.   This is a sad and disgusting world we live in.  This poor young person is living in a heteronormative suburban area that has nothing but strip malls and beige houses.  There are no places to be without spending money in chain stores.  Everything has a camera attached to it and nothing different is allowed to be there.  There is not even a public library in the region. I wonder what that sort of environment does to a young freak?

I’m concerned that the school officials are attempting to convince this young person to drop the restraining order.  An order that keeps zir safe from zirs father through the rest of the semester, then there is a court date.  What the father of this young person did is unspeakable.  I’m livid.  I’m trying to not scream at the people in positions of power but they continue to bring their own morals into a situation that desperately needs to have a queer advocate present, yet does not.  I am growing more and more worried about what happens to young people who refuse to follow the herd.

Every year hundreds, if not thousands, of non-normative teens kill themselves, are killed, are beaten, and raped and forced into situations that are not safe or tolerant.  If these school officials pressure this young person into dropping the restringing order and anything happens to zir I am going to be very pissed off.  Putting someone in the way of a hate crime is a very serious thing to do.  Why then are they so adamant about fostering communication without a queer advocate present?

Should this not be a standard procedure?  Aaaaaaahhhh

I’m fucking livid.  I’m in the mood to beat the fuck out of someone.  Since it would be a bad idea to beat the fuck out of the homophobe who tossed his teen out on thanksgiving I’m hoping I can find a willing masochist to take my rage.

Please tell me there is a masochist who can step forward and take a beating.  I need to hurt someone.  I need to hurt someone consensually.  I need to do this now.  Don’t make me wait.  I’m in a real serious mood.